***sigh*** I so wish I had the gift. I have always considered myself pretty good at most things, but never great at anything. The older I've gotten, the more I've learned to appreciate this. Being a jack-of-all-trades isn't all that bad. Gone are the grandiose ideas of being a piano playing genius. I'm content with my modest skills. I no longer hope to have my sketches and paintings hanging in an art gallery. Having them tucked away in my private studio (a special little cabinet in my game room) is more than fine. I know I will never don a gourmet chef's hat, but I can certainly hang with the domestic goddesses of the world. Writing a best-selling novel will never happen. Yet I have my sweet blog friends on which I can dump my blather. And the list goes on.
Of course there are those things I had once aspired to be that I've let go of out of necessity. The dreams of being a country music recording artist, a leading lady on the big screen or a dancing diva on Broadway have been laid to rest. Mostly because I cannot carry a tune in a bucket, my memory sucks, which would hinder my ability to remember all those lines, and I have two left feet! But there is one dream, one gift, I wish like everything I possessed. I wish...want...no, I yearn to be a great photographer. Not one that peddles their photographs. Not one that is publicly recognized. I want to be a photographer that captures life for myself and for those I know and love. I want the skill required to stop time with my photos and document emotions...relationships...feelings. I desire to create photographs with meaning. Does anyone out there know what I mean? I guess it is better put by saying I want to snap photos that have people saying, "awwwww". Even if it is only those directly connected to the subject.
Last Friday, I had the opportunity to photograph a wedding. To give you a little background information, I do not possess the skills I just mentioned. I don't shoot in manual mode. And I've never even taken a photography class. I am enrolled in a class that begins this month, but that wasn't doing me much good on Friday night. To say I was nervous is a MAJOR understatement. But it was for a dear friend. Her son was getting married and they were working within a tight budget so I was asked to help out. And of course I could not dream of saying no. A nervous Nelly I was. But I was excited at the same time. I tried to anticipate every possible problem. Extra camera...check. Additional charged battery...check. Valium...check (just kidding). Back up photographer...check. I convinced my daughter to tag along and snag some shots from different angles. I figured it best to increase my odds of getting a few good shots. I knew this would be an exhausting night and I was right. I began at 4:00 photographing the wedding party as they were getting dressed. And the festivities didn't end until almost 11:00. I. Had. A. BLAST!
I want to share a small sampling of what my little camera captured. And I do mean a small sampling. I took over 1000 photos...1028 to be exact. And that was just with my camera! See, I told you I wanted to increase my odds of snagging some good shots. LOL! Ironically, I think I only deleted 10-15 on my first run through. The others will require more scrutiny to see which ones make the cut. I was pretty pleased with the results. Most importantly, my friend, Pam, had tears in her eyes when she viewed them for the first time. I guess you could say it was a success.
One point to note, the actual ceremony was a bear to photograph. It took place on a deck overlooking a splendid mountain view. But I was required to snap directly into the sun...ughhh! Of course, the lighting was also less than stellar in the rooms where everyone was getting ready, but several of these shots are my favorite for the composition alone. And I'm still researching editing techniques. So please view these with a kind and forgiving eye and try to see the joy in these lovely faces. I honestly can say I've never seen a less stressed and happier couple on their wedding day. (You can click on the photos to enlarge them.)
After the ceremony:
So I've bared my soul and shared my dream. And I've even shown you my first attempt at realizing this dream. How about it? What is one of your dreams...one you have already lived or one yet to be realized? I really want to know.